Of course, before, I stated to you guys that I would reveal something about myself that has been going on me, which is the reason that I have more time at home. Well, some of my closest buddies already know, including those that I have as friends on livejournal. I’m 7 months pregnant with my second child, which I just found out not long ago is a girl. In the beginning I had mixed feelings about everything but now I’m more than excited at the fact and of course, this is a life changing situation for me. I’ve had more time at home because I’ve been on bedrest or a while now. Of course, I have some complications which is why I’m on bedrest, but I believe that everything will be alright in the long run. I’m a little scared of course because of the procedures I will have to go through but I’m optimistic. My due date is November 10th but my procedure (scheduled c-section) will be weeks before that. I plan on keeping my website updated with things about my pregnancy and of course, when I actually have my baby. I’m a pretty private person, which is why I hadn’t revealed this before but since I will be blogging about my life, it’s something that needs to be said so everyone won’t come back later like, “Wow, where’d the baby come from?” On a different note, it completely sucks to be on bedrest. I’m practically losing my mind but it sure beats being stressed out every single day. I try to find ways to occupy myself, such as reading, chatting and just plain surfing the web. I’ve always wanted a girl and pretty soon I’ll have a little mama.

I have been working on my portfolio, but it’s not complete yet, as there are many things that I would like to add. It’s a great way of killing time for me plus it gives me the opportunity to actually construct a portfolio, which I’ve been meaning to do for some time now. I would really appreciate it if you guys would check it out.

I deleted myself from a lot of online communities that I was a member of but didn’t use. I also deleted useless email addresses and such. Life can get pretty hectic and I was beginning to completely forget about some things as far as the internet goes so those were much needed changes.

Posted: August 17th, 2008    By: Lolita    Filed Under: Changes, Life    20 comments

I just couldn’t resist the need to create a much more elegant theme. Don’t get me wrong, I loved all of my other themes and I worked just as hard on them. I was highly motivated to create this theme, however and it took me quite some time to get the CSS just the way I wanted it to be. I know I’ll still be tweaking the theme here and there, as I do with other themes. If you can’t see it you may view it by clicking here.

This summer is coming to an end rather swiftly. I’m happy, in a way because the heat is just not my thing, especially being asthmatic. However, I will miss the whole summer aura and some of the fairly beautiful days that we’ve actually had. This summer wasn’t very eventful for me for various reasons. If you’re a regular reader of my livejournal then you pretty much already know why. I haven’t been up to much lately, as usual. I have managed to read a few books, which I added to my books section of the website. Also, I am currently still working on my Design and Portfolio site, which was formally my personal blogging site until I bought this domain. Feel free to check that out, as well.

I don’t really have much else to discuss. It’s currently 5:16 am and I’m going to head to bed very soon. Have a blessed week!

Posted: August 13th, 2008    By: Lolita    Filed Under: Life, Updates, Website    37 comments

Edit: Excuse me while I do a site revamp. This process may take a couple of days.

I have reached a state of utter disgust. This world has completely crumbled and of course, this has been occurring since the beginning of time. It makes me wonder if things are how they were created to be or did we, as human beings, turn this world upside down. There’s only one word to describe it, chaos. I think this word is fitting to most things in the world if not limited to everything else. Some of the many questions that I have formulated have been those of which, there aren’t obvious or clear answers to. One thing is for certain, there isn’t always an explanation or solution for everything. With this knowledge, I have come to the conclusion that most things in life are spontaneous depending on our decisions and actions. I truly believe that there is only one destination, fate. Just as there are roads to places we choose to go in this world, there are roads in our lives that lead us to our fates. What road we will take is up to us. Our decisions and actions ultimately determine what path we have chosen to reach our fates. As I believe in many things, there are many roads. I have walked quite a few and detoured onto others but I believe that my fate shall remain the same. Could it be that “purpose” in which most speak of in life is just another word that can be replaced with fate? I believe it is, whether anyone else chooses to agree with me or not. Although I believe that most things in life are spontaneous, the rest can be said to be concocted by fate. Some things in life are just too well drawn out to be written off as strictly coincidental. Some things fall into place in ways that we cannot and never will understand.

This world has been formed from nothing into the unbelievably wonderful world of technology that it is today. We have created this. We have come a long way, but has technology brought us to a state where we are no longer in control of our actions? Thinking back to olden times, almost everything was carefully planned out. Life appeared to be much easier with agendas. Of course, it proved to be quite boring and led to the unhappiness of many individuals who felt that they weren’t in control of their lives. What we sought was our own free will that God gave to us. Over time, this has been completely taken advantage of. Just because one has the right to decide what he/she wants to do with his/her life doesn’t mean that it is always the right thing to do. Then the big question arises. How do we determine what’s right and what’s wrong? Although free will exists, this world is still pretty much structured but chaos continues on because being structured just doesn’t fit well with what we desire individually. I am curious as to what this world will consist of years from now.

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Posted: August 07th, 2008    By: Lolita    Filed Under: Wisdom, World    17 comments

For days before Danieal Kelly died in a fetid, airless room — made stifling hot by a midsummer heat wave — the bedridden teenager begged for something to drink until she could muster only one word: water.

Unable to help herself because of her cerebral palsy, she wasted away from malnutrition and maggot-infested bedsores that ate her flesh. She died alone on a putrid mattress in her mother’s home, the floor covered in feces. She was 14 but weighed just 42 pounds.

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As a mother, I am terribly disgusted by this. How could anyone do this to their own child? The sad thing is, a lot of outside people knew about how this child was dying and did absolutely nothing about it. Some people don’t deserve to be parents. If you feel that you are unable to take care of or provide for a child, then you need to give someone else a chance who would be a great parent. By this I mean adoption. I don’t even really know what to say except that I hope the parents of this child and the contributing parties do some time.

Posted: August 02nd, 2008    By: Lolita    Filed Under: News, World    27 comments